It’s so like me to create impossible expectations of myself, and then give myself 20 lashes for not measuring up. I planned to travel, have two major public speaking events at a conference in Texas and on top of this, expected myself to maintain the 5 steps: A reminder of the Five Steps: 1)Eat real food 2) Exercise 3) Meditate 4) Journal 5) Release tension through the breath
I brought little baggies of nuts and granola, plus energy bars to the conference to have with me, so I wouldn’t be hunger if I had to skip a meal. These came in handy as I spent many hours manning my Positive Innerchange display booth and selling my books and CDs. Score one for me! Two of the five days I had spinach omelets and lots of fruit for breakfast. Score two for me! The other three days, I was rushing around downing chocolate muffins for breakfast…Oops…minus one for me. I had a wonderful salad for dinner one night, but the other nights I know I could have made better choices. Minus two for me…Most of the days I was exhausted, setting up the booth, speaking, and talking with people for 8-9 hours straight. I just went to bed. I scheduled exercise into my days at the conference, but just didn’t follow through. On a plus note, the first and last days I did go for walks and attend a session called pianoyoga. Other than that, my good intensions went out the window….just too tired to move. Meditation and Journaling…nope. ..minus two more. Breathing? Yes, thank goodness for the breath! One more plus!
We Focus on “Not Being Too Hard on Yourself”
“Was I being too hard on myself?” The answer is yes. It’s just as important to review what I did right as it is to review what I could have done better. I did the best I could. I didn’t come home sick and I had wonderful, successful presentations and book sales. There is no point in being angry at myself or dissatisfied for my lack of disciple. So, for now I let it go and plan to travel with lower expectations next time. I plan to be gentler with myself and look for opportunities of more joy and fun, even if that means just “me time” snuggled in watching TV. I’m off to LA in two weeks. Any travel ideas that have worked for you?
I breathe and allow myself to settle gently into my normal routine at home. I let go of the need to punish myself, which just sets me up for another vicious cycle of high expectations followed by failure followed once again by higher, more impossible expectations…..more failure. I breathe. I soften and relax my body. I find compassion for the imperfect being I am. Yet, I know that peak performance is about finding balance and about following the 5 steps. I begin again….giving up is never an option.
Today, I’m more rested and ready to begin to shift gears into work. Due to allowing my body to rest, I begin with a clearer mind and a more relaxed body. Try this, it works!